For Matt by Karen Hall...Kasie's Mom / Diane Rodgers (Mom)
From Markie Medovitch - my best friend June's son. / Diane Rodgers (good friend ) Hey Diane- I know today is hard for you and I just wanted to write and tell you how much I love you and how proud I am for how strong you all are! It was so sad to lose Matt but I am still so lucky to have warm, loving, people like you in my life. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers,
-Markie
Stacy Medovitch daughter of my best friend June / Diane Rodgers (friend as a sister ) Hi Diane,
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you all today on Matt's Angel Day. I know it must be so hard but I want you to know you are loved and so is Matt and I am thinking of him so much today. I was telling my friends stories about him and Tommy and Josh today of when they were all little and causing mischief. I can't believe this much time has gone by. Please stay strong and know he is with you always!! Love you so so much!!!
Xoxo Stacy
Anemail to me fromMatt's best friend TomMedovitch / Diane Rodgers (Best friend of Matts Tom Medovitch ) hi diane - i just wanted to let you know i'm thinking about you and your family today. i can't believe it's been 4 years already! can you believe it's been 16 years with my mom!! unreal how time is flying by, but i guess that we are true testaments that we are still able to move forward with our lives and live them with the people we currently love. this has been and always is, a tough month. with my mom's anniversary of her passing on may 15th, then mothers day following immediately, then her bday on june 7th, then matt's anniversary today. almost a month to the day. i thank God for the 8 grand angels you have running amook your house! i know they bring a smile to yours and timmy's faces and that's all i could ask for from God. i think about matt every day still, as i do my mom. i have every day since they both past and will for the rest of my life. ill never forget the words your mom spoke at matt's service, saying "for our own selfish reasons, we want them to come back from heaven, but they're now in a sea of love, an ocean of love and we would be selfish to want to take them from there". when i heard your mom say that, it made me feel good and it gave me a sense of "everything is going to be okay" type of feeling. you remember that peace lilly i have from matt's funeral? well im still taking care of it and it's still alive. it hasn't bloomed any flowers since the summer matt died and i thought it would never bloom flowers again as the years have been going by. it has been my goal to get the flowers to bloom and wouldn't you know it, i've had 3 flowers bloom in the past 2 months!!! thanks matt!!!!
anyways - just wanted to let you know im thinking about you and yours. I love you and your whole family very much!!!!! kristin, dave and the kids are gonna be at my dads next wknd, so ill be up for the whole wknd, so ill make sure we stop down for a visit.
love - tommy
ps.....i saw todd and jenn at the pens game, they had FRONT ROW TICKETS!!!! those sons of bitches!!! im all the way up in peanut heaven with my binoculars still wondering if my seats were in the state of pennsylvania and they're smack dab right up against the glass! i couldn't believe it - well i guess being in there is better than not being in there at all, but still! front row tickets! i asked todd how he got them and he said some guy, one of his vendors, from work just gave them to him. i dont know how in this world, some guy just "gives" away front row tickets to the stanley cup finals!! hahaha okay im done ranting - good for todd and jenn, i was just so envious!!!
A candle burning for Matt on his Angel Date. / Diane Rodgers (By Starry (Natalie) Ralston )
Starry has this burning in Australia all day Matt for your 4th Angelversary.... She took a photo of it so I could see it and it's ever strong burning light ... So blessed you have put so many wonderful Moms into my life to help get us through each day...
For Matt on his 4th Angelversary-by Karen Hall / Diane Rodgers (Karen Hall made this for Matt's 4th angelversary )
For Diane & her family onMatt's 4 yr. angel date.. / Diane Rodgers (By Robin Miller ) Morning, Diane,
My heart is saddened for you on this day of remembrance of your very handsome son, Matthew. Being a mom who has experienced such grief is the hardest thing you will ever have to endure in life. I am sorry you have this long journey to walk on. Your website is beautiful. I am proud of you! Keep him close to your heart and your memories and may LOVE be what YOU remember the most...
Here is a link to another song I came across not too long ago. I thought it was beautiful. I included the words with the link. Wanted to share with you today...
I've spent my life building castles of dreams reaching for each distance star As tears clear my eyes, I finally realize, happiness is where you are And I'm still apart of you, you're still apart of me and i swear I'll always celebrate your memory, you live inside of me
Heaven holds the ones i love I see your eyes twinkle in the skies above my hopes are floating in the clouds the wind repeats your name out loud oh... heaven holds the ones i love
When times I'm unsure, why our hearts must endure all the pain at such great loss, still look what i've gain I feel your kiss in the rain, but its your smile that I miss the most And I'm still apart of you, you're still the biggest part of me and i swear I'll always celebrate your memory, and trust what's meant to be
*chorus
Bridge: And in my grieve and disbelief, one thing i know is true every breath i take brings me closer to you
Thinking of you and all who love and miss you / Kate Porter Christopher's Mum
My Matt.... / Diane Rodgers (Mom) I had to come here tonight Matt...Can't stop crying...I am missing you so much...How dear God....can it be 4 years since I have seen you- my Matt???? Four Years????????? Years???? Not days, not hours,not months, but 4 years??????
I am hurting so badly for my baby.....Matt....I miss you so much I can hardly stand it any more ...my cries are the same today as they were 4 years ago when you left us....Time has changed nothing, nothing has changed....I ache for you as much or more than I did that first day we learned you left us. I am so tired....so weary of missing you so much every single minute still ...
I keep trying to talk to myself...to make it better somehow...nothing works Matt........just saying your name ....Matthew..... oh God I want you back so badly.....I have to wait until I die too to be with you...it just isn't right .... to be separated from you for all of this time... No matter what I do or where I go or who I am with....or if I am alone...it is always the same... aching for you in my mind and heart...How do I ever heal from this honey? How do any of us ever heal???? Please help me...help all of us.... sitting at this computer all of the time..reaching out to strangers who have lost their child too... trying to make it make some kind of sense... trying to trust God, trying to understand somehow why this has happened... nothing works for long....You are a part of my soul, my body,my life.... I miss you so much it can't be described in words...there are no words for this separation ... this hole can never be filled ...and yet we all have to go on... for all of us who are left behind without you ... we walk this road of pain..each one of us....alone.... for without you...we are all broken... If there is a way to healing honey...please show us the way...
Praying to be with you ...hoping the time isn't so long and hard waiting to be with you again... I wish I could relax....as you always told me.....you said to Dad in his dream..."Everything's cool"...I so hope it is and I just want it all to be cool with us too...
Please Matt...come to me....I need to see you...to hold you...Please come to me somehow....come to all of us...we love you beyond love...
June the 18th...2005...an eternity ago, and as if yesterday...
God I love you honey ... Mom xox
June 18th 2009. With Love from Sue XOXOXOX ...... / Sue Smith (friend of Diane )
My thoughts are with you all at this difficult time. Much Love always
Diane, I so feel your pain, and we are all on this journey together. It's so good to have others out there that we can share with, who know what we're going through.
I can't make fancy graphics to put here, but just know my heart is aching with you, and you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Praying that your handsome Matt does come and visit you to give you peace on his anniversary.
Love & hugs xxooxx
A poem for Matt's family I wrote.... / Starry Ralston (friend of Moms ) Hi Diane,
here is my little butterfly poem, non rhyming, I have shared it with Chez, and with my cousin when she was widowed. Now it is my honour to share it with you,
xxxx Starry
If I Were A Butterfly
If I were a butterfly, my tears would stretch across the sky like rays of sunlight,
Touching others gently like a healing hand.
As a butterfly, my indecision would appear a beautiful dance
between the various wonders of the world.
Should I rest on this magnificent rose, or that steadfast carnation?
The awkwardness of my body would melt away and
be replaced with wings so fine and graceful.
The pain and limitations of my self expression would go,
I’d sing out through the exquisite fluttering of my wings,
like a geisha with her fan.
If I were a butterfly, the hours of the day would be given freely,
the expectations of my life would be simple and sweet.
No need to rush, no concept of greed, or envy,
just love and the simple pleasures of meeting true needs.
Oh the calling of my soul to be a symbol of liberty,
an ambassador of love,
a butterfly!
For my Matt .... / Diane Rodgers (Mom) I Cannot Get Over Losing You
My heart is bleeding again,
Of that I have no control,
Just thinking of you
is such a strain,
I will never get out of this hole.
It seems I am good
for quite awhile,
Living out my days in course,
Then the loss of you
hits my smile,
And I lose all of my force.
To carry on as though
you were still,
A very living being,
When I know deep
in my heart,
YOU ARE GONE.....
Never more to be seeing.
I know it is like this for all,
Who have lost love
at deaths door,
I know that I am not alone,
I just wish my heart
was not so sore.
I will never get over losing you,
I can only hope
and pray each day.
If ever there is
a true loving God,
I will meet you again some day!
Happy Valentine's Day...Matthew / Teri Drebit (Jaime's Mom)
Diane your handsome bot Matt / Karen/Kassie Mom (Connected By Angels )
Diane i hope this graphic brings a smile to your face as it did for me making this graphic of your handsome boy Matt. Done with lots of love.
Hugs & Love & special friendship
Karen
A newspaper article ... Family Metamorphosis / Diane Rodgers (Mom)
I found this in the paper and it really hit me hard. The Butterfly has been a sign to us from Matt since the very beginning. There is always a message meant to help from Matt.
"To be emotionally healthy, a person needs to accept that change is a part of life - in fact, change is the only constant and sure thing in life."
This journey has been such a long hard road, learning to go on - a new normal - searching for anything and everything to help along the way - opening up to hear and see the "lessons to be learned", and going forward as best as possible knowing someday we will be together again ... I love you Matt, we all love you and miss you honey - this is something that will never change.
We Remember Them / Karen/Kassie Mom (Connected By Angles ) In the rising of the sun and its going down, We remember them
In the blowing of the wind and in the chill of winter, We remember them
In the opening of the buds and in the rebrith of spring, We remember them
In the blueness of the sky and in the warmth of summer, We remember them
In the rustling of the leaves and in the beauty of autumn,
We remember them
In the beginning of the year and when it ends, We remember when
When we are weary and in need of strength, We remember them
When we are lost and sick at heart, We remember them
When we have joy we yearn to share, We remember them
So long as we live, they too shall live, For they are now a part of us, As we remember them
Happy Heavenly New Year Matthew... / Diane Rodgers (Mom)
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